Okay, so yes, I’m still here. Meaning, I exist, as a “person” in the “world,” though I haven’t been in front of my computer, much less on the “internet.”
Because, you know. Babies. Two of them.
I was about to write an inventory of my whole day, but then I got exhausted and bored just thinking about it. Basically, I feed the boys, I change the boys, I pump my boobs, I wash bottles and pump parts, and then start the process over again. All day. I look at the clock multiple times a day and wonder where the hours went. And then I realize at 4 or 5 in the afternoon, I haven’t showered yet, and maybe I haven’t brushed my teeth.
So it’s a good thing they are cute. I wake up in the morning and I can’t wait to see their little faces.
They are both gaining weight at a rate that is stunning our pediatrician. Loyal’s face is filling out, and he’s getting a little double chin. He looks more like a baby and less like a skinny little monkey.
As the weeks go by, they are becoming more “awake,” where they are spending more time bright eyed and curious in between feedings, instead of just sleeping all day.
And they wiggle. A lot.
Of course, sleep deprivation is an issue for all of us. Some handle it better than others.
There are moments, as I run through my days, where I am frozen by a look or a sound, something small, something innocuous, something ordinary but so…exquisite and fleeting.
This face! This little face!
Or a moment of calm and quiet.
I have to remember to stop and catch these. It’s already going by so fast.
Ah, little boys. We are so very here in the world.